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Monday, January 31, 2005
:: snug :: i'm kinda confused now. A doesn't have a gd impression of B B doesn't have a gd impression of A A doesn't like backstabbers B is a backstabber yet A and B are 'gd frens' huh?? i find it kinda fake,superficial. but who am i to say anything since she seem to not regard me as her 'gd' fren. its not that i'm jealous. i just find it stupid to say that u hate a particular characteristic and yet,play along with a person with that particular characteristic and feel that nth is going wrong. blah. wadeva. on friday mi and cin went to paya lebar to watch the music fiesta. it was..okay. haha. and i saw TAUFIK!!! its kinda surreal but yet,at that moment in time i was so damn delighted. (( x made new frenz and we exchanged email adds. and i found out that they were in the same school as hafiz. hrmx.. i think everybody has bought their new year clothes beside me..huR..so sad. and my mothe doesn't seem to bother bout whether i have or dun have new year clothes. maybe it isn't that big a deal to her. : God rocks my life lah! (( x Taufik too. :D Thursday, January 27, 2005
:: norm :: its been 10,000 years since i ever wrote in my blog. oh well,was caught up with my 'busy' school life. i dunno whether its a gd thing or a bad thing. either way,i'm just worn out by everything. my class is fun,noisy and a damn horny bunch of ppl man. oh well.. anyways,feeling kinda down lately but i guess,even if i show it, nobody would know. i'm not sufferin from depression. i'm just thinkin, is it that the people around are completely oblivious to..oh nvm. anyways..shall blog another time. taufik is so cute!! haha..(( x Thursday, January 06, 2005
:: eeck :: school was just blah. icebreakers during english wasn't that fun or entertaining. and its like, what the hell is ms tessa tan doin? seriously, no insult whatsoever but she's like..man,i'd rather not talk about it. well, height and weight taking today. i gained back the 2 kg i lost. so now i'm (officially)broadcasting my weight on the world wide web, that my weight is 44.2kg! HAR! and i only grew like wad, 0.5cm lah?! its the saddest news of all. x (
lit was great. i mean,there's MRS TAN!!!! *rubs hands in glee well,kinda upset that most of my best buddies are all like busy with meetings and stuff or rather, just want to go home and do finish their homework. i mean, a simple lunch at the canteen won't be that bad rite? on second thought, i take that back.(since the canteen is forever crowded and small.and there probably won't be enough seats left) sad case man. ____________________________________________________ edit // my head feels hollow. nth is in my mind now. blank. zilch. zero. but still, i wanna put a point here in my blog, whether people come here to read my nonscence is a whole new story. i look at the people around me, and well, obviously everyone has their own specific "hate list". well, i probably can know how some people feel but keepin this in mind, aren't we all imperfect? why must u judge others just by their flaws?(in this scene, i'm also referring to myself) okok, some of you would say that he had hurt u and blah. seriously, haven't you hurt anyone around u? i'm so lost now. my thoughts are all scattered around. there's stuff bout food, there's stuff regarding hafiz , stuff about growing taller, there is also stuff about friendship(with xr,xinyi,ver, n10..etc). it just doesn't matter anymore. come to think about it, this world is pathetic. man is cruel, ruthless and cunning. but God still loved us. how amazing is that? Tuesday, January 04, 2005
:: breakin new grounds :: well, wanted to talk bout my 'last days' of 2004. had the breaking new grounds camp at our holding school[aka Kadesh]. was kinda reluctant but still went. and it was gd that i went because if i didn't, i wouldn't have been so close with God. though when during the praise and worship i was doin sound with wanzhen, i still felt the presence of God. the word was gd and the verse i learned for word power came up. Joshua 1:9 (NIV) Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go." because of this verse, my grp[d-gang] was like..in a sense, stuck to it. God gave us a revelation. telling us not to give up easily and yea..it was realli great. there was much unity and bonds/friendships were built. i was kinda dishearten as some ppl dare not lift their hands up and some were very distracted with,well..everything else around them. but that's besides the point. though our food tasted like ashes[to me], i still thank God for the food. haha. well, had prayer walk on the first day. learnt many new things and olive oil was put on my forehead[along with gen and xiurong as well]. we then made use of the remainin olive oil to dab the four corners of the bball court/assembly area. it was drizzlin at that time..so ya. we then headed to the classrooms and prayed for it. felt smth evil or rather, i felt an evil presence blockin one of the classrooms on the second lvl.i mean, the window of the door was tinted in black and i dunno..its juz the feeling..went up to lvl 3. prayed for the toilet. smth evil was in there. i was overwhelmed by the rush of well,feelings into my heart. there was so much...anger,sadness,a grudgin heart and an evil presence. gen,me,xr and ms tessa tan prayed for the toilet. spoke in tongues and ya..that presence was gone. funny how a toilet has a gate though.went down to pray for the classroom i mentioned.but i realised we were in the wrong room since..well.ah..nvm. and like,its my classroom lah! haha. the best part was..well,at night. i stood up for the altar call for like..boldness and stuff. God really touched my heart and really,well..haha..no words can describe that feeling. and i'll never forget this encounter with God. well,2nd day of camp. makan breakfast. the milo was diluted. but the beehoon was great. not to mention that the sambal was uber hot. nice. (( x well,had quiet time. like wad i said earlier, God gave us a revelation during our quiet time. it was like..whoa. haha. oh,forgot to mention that while we were headin towards the e.hall, we saw this nest with a little birdie inside. man,tt mouth is HUGE. haha. but like one of the sister/fellow student said, an offspring/ a little birdie means that..we have a new beginning in the yaer 2005. realised also that prayer is a strong weapon against evil. like wad delia said "its been a long time since we ever came together for prayer meeting." hrmx..well,i'll never let go of this experience and well,ya..u get wad i mean. i wanna be with God. i'm so in LOVE with Him. haha. oh well, he rocks! bwhaha. (( x 2004 had great memories. i wanna thank all those you have came into my life. be it in a small or big way. either way, i'd like to thank you guys for everything. for the joy you brought, the encouragement and many more. thank you guys for everything you've done and also, for what you did not do also. haha. yes,i'm talking crap. but deep down from my heart, thanx much guys! and lastly,i would wanna thank my Heavenly Father. though i keep running away from him when i sin, he always calls for me to come back and so easily forgives me. He speaks in His own still,small voice. thank you Lord for forgiving me and still loving me so very much. ( : thank you one and all!! :: 2005 :: wow. its a new year already and like..seriously,wow. i wanna remain as a 14 yr old!..haha..fine,i shall not complain. well, it has been quite a fun year,2004. many things happened and yea,i regretted some things that i did. oh well, let me talk about the year 2005[esp bout my sch] Saturday[1/1/o5] HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! went to church to serve sound in children church. waited for amelia for..quite some time but yea,went off first. reached church and to my amazement, the audi was decorated in pink! its a someone's wedding. haha..was kinda shock. i thought i entered the wrong place or smth. well, hid myself in the storeroom since i didn't know what to do. saw brother david come in. hahaha. i was stoned for 1 minute. :\ well, saw victor and ya,amelia came soon after. helped out in the wedding, for a while. realised it was zhisen(correct spellin? haha..)[he was the guy that walked pass me and amelia,smiled at us too. all at the same time when he saw me yawning] and Jeannie's wedding. well,after tt we got everything ready for children's church. i just found out that brother william is more of a quiet cum serious type of person[not forgettin the fact that he is also gd-lookin and has some mighty muscles.. :D]. anyways, i was quite blur due to the lack of sleep. but hey, learn a few things about the console/board. soon after, handed over the duty to bimei and gang to do svc 2 and 3. then we went up to makan. my glorious curry. (( x after that, went to meet fish to do my english. went haikal's hse and ya,played with the oh so cute Bright the cat. Sunday[2/1/o5] svc was great. so exciting!! haha..met michelle[auggie's fren] from RGS! oh my goodnes. haha. well, went to makan at cafe. no curry! x( but i paid 50cents more for the gravy. a little ex but hey, its worth it ( : after makan-ing, went to give bible study with xiaozhu and auggie to sis yp! haha..i was like,repeatin the facts over and over again! but hey, its quite a fun and gd experience. *rubs hands in glee well,tried to contact yanling but..no responce. kinda disheartenin. well, was in the mrt when i saw many many many[and i realli do mean, many!] NS men.[or shld i say, GREEN men.hahaha. i'm so evil.] went home, rush through my homework and tryin to get it done. was praying very hard to God that on monday we dun need to hand up the homework. was also prayin to God that i would have this spiritual alarm clock in me that allows me to wake up on time. Monday[3/1/o5] woke up on time! praise the Lord!! had my bath,laid in bed for 5-10 mins then went down to rush through my homework again. sadly, i didn't manage to finish it. it was raining and like, super cold lah. obviously, if anyone was on their way to school and was in a car, they would be caught in a traffic jam.[like me..*sulk] was late for duty and got shouted at. but i was kinda 'immune' to it,since i was all blur and sleepy. haha. the sec1s look mighty,er..immature? no offence though. cute bunch. anyways, helped out in the ava stuff at the hall. ended,then went to class. i'm like,short lah! help! anyways, sittin with eileen now,with dez behind me. had games and blah. it was kinda..expected.[the games i mean] its not that interesting. well, was feeling quite faint and i wanted to puke[seriously]. told dez and sarah,went to the toilet and ya. i guess i felt better- a little. blabla..class was super not enthu,except for pris,ser hui and morena. but hey,nice class. got to know a FEW ppl. oh oh!! -hair length from second collar till the uniform line thingy can be tied in a bun -handphones are allowed[but no camera phones. :\ ] YES!!! but i must say, i look veh weird when i tie my hair up. Tuesday. TODAY![4/1/o5] forgot to mention that i was mighty sick when i went home yesterday. sore throat gettin worse,day by day. fever of 38.7 degrees. but with God's mighty healing and power, i was healed. i was shiverin and crying in my room. but He told me to just rest and that he will heal me. so i did as told. when i woke up, i realised that my body temp. was lower. checked it and it was 37.7 degrees. Praise the Lord! and this morning, i was healed!! 36.7 degrees. indeed God is a gd god! (( x well,rushed thru homework.went to school. duty. blah. mrs jacob was 'scolding' me and stuff but i was like.."ok..hrmph...yea..orh..yes..ok". haha. fun. well, after the "tsunami talk" and mega camp briefin, went back to class with mr cheong alredi inside. =.= oh well. ang was funny and i dunno..haha. chem was next. had teachers: mrs chong and mrs rajah[*breaks into BIG laughter]. funny MOU thing. haha. stayed in class for recess to catch up on my homework. art was next. oh my goodness man..mrs ong's artwork is like..so..ARTY!!!!! haha..as in seriously, it was nice. i like how she blends the colours together and uses different 'mediums' in a same piece of work.went out to sketch a leaf of the tree. doris is seriously one gd drawer. her artwork is really nice. well,after art we had english with ms tessa tan. i think she forgot who i am. but anyways, she's more fun then cumar. haha. chinese came after this. Mdm Hou came in. haha. she is like, damn funny lah. she can be an actress man. more of a comedian though, since she doesn't laugh at her own 'jokes'. hrmx..hahaha. every 5 mins you can hear someone/the class breaking into laughter. but hey, she's tryin to be serious lah..PC was after. choose our main comm and CONGRATS to DESIREE being the class MONITRESS!! haha.. wow dez..hahaha. ate lunch. met up with mrl peeps. set up banner. yani arR..make a BIG hole at the corner of the banner. haha.. went to meet my dad to go see the doc. found out i was having a fever, again. haha. funny how i didn't realise it. got my medicine and ya. headed straight for home. so here i am. (( : |